Poems about the Nature of Life

The here and now-ish

It's not where I'm going
or where I've been that matters
it's really more the here and now-ish
that can't be evaded
missteps can't be retaken
the holes ahead are lying in the dark
I'm standing in the pure light of the moment
strung between a memory and a dream
whatever I think I've learned
unravels as the day unfolds

following the shadows before me
brings only knowledge
of my ignorance




Resist and Decease

in the slow progression
and small irritations of daily life
the musty smell
of lost opportunities permeate
my venial indulgences

dry as grass in a drought
precious fantasies
and raucous hopes
are shriveling

waiting for time to spin
the wheel of happenstance
waiting for something
extraordinary

a growing desire
to act on the urge

to fall into
an opening
a blooming
a canyon so vast
as to lose myself
for the rest of my days




Manifesto

I’ve learned that things
never flow the way I want them;
not through the sweet fog of reverie
or by the anguish of restless desire.
They always come unannounced,
unbidden, and through secret corridors -
at the point where I had relinquished hope
by failing to envision their eventuality

Rarely do I receive the asked for gift;
the present is ever one degree beyond
or is lagging behind its boundless potential -
dissipating within my yearning.
Lost to the next day’s sheen.

Truth flails behind layers of verisimilitude
and sends out its urgent call.
My lids grow heavy with its spell.
I fight to awaken to the clarion voice,
but it draws me deeper into shadow;
leaving me with formless words from
a mind listening to infinite silence.


credits to Melissa from States of Being





The Wheel of Life

Time is-
Love is-
Death is-
And the Wheel turns,
And the Wheel turns,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

And the sage said:
Lo, that which binds you to the Wheel
Is of your own making,
And the very Wheel
Is of your own making.
And the Wheel turns,
And the Wheel turns,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

And the sage said:
Know that we are all One.
Know that the Wheel is of your own making,
Know that the Wheel is of your own making,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

And the sage said:
Free yourself from the Wheel.
Know you are the One,
Accept your wn work,
Free yourself from the Wheel.
Know that the Wheel is of your own making,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

And the sage freed himself from the Wheel,
and became the One,
The immortal God,
Freed from the Wheel,
Freed from illusion,
And knew why the One had created the Wheel.
And the One became many,
And the One became we,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

Time is-
Love is-
Death is-
And the Wheel turns,
And the Wheel turns,
And we are all bound to the Wheel.

Approval Seeking I

People live their whole lives in believing what others say, dependant on others. That's why people are very afraid of others' opinions. If they think you are bad, you become bad. If they condemn you, you start condemning yourself. If they say you are a sinner you start feeling guilty. Because you have to depend on their opinions, you have to continuously conform to their ideas; otherwise they will change their opinions. This creates a slavery a very subtle slavery. If you want to be known as good, worthy, beautiful, intelligent, then you have to concede, you have to compromise continuously with people on whom you are dependant.
And another problem arises. Because there are so many people, they go on feeding your mind with different types of opinions - conflicting opinions, too. One opinion contradicting another opinion; hence a great confsuion exists inside you. One person says you are very intelligent, another person says you are stupid. How to decide? So you are divided. You become suspicious about yourself, about who you are .... a wavering. And the complexity is very great because there are thousands of people around you.
You come in contact with so many people, and everybody is feeding his ideas into your mind, and nobody knows you - not even you yourself know - so all this collection becomes jumbled up inside. This is a maddening situation. You have many voices inside you. Whenever you ask who you are, many answers will come. Some answers will be your mother's some will be your father's, some will be your teachers and so on and so forth. And it is impossible to decide which one is the right answer. How to decide? What is the criterion? This is where man is lost. This is self-ignorance.
But because you depend on others, you are afraid to go into aloneness - because the moment you start going into aloneness, you start becoming very afraid of losing yourself. You don't have yourself in the first place, but whatever self you have created out of the opinions of others will have to be left behind. Hence, it is very scary to go in. The deeper you go the less you know who you are. So in fact before you are moving towards self-knowledge, before it happens you will have to drop all believes about the self. There will be a gap; there will be a kind of nothingness. You will become a nonentity. You will be utterly lost because all that you know is no longer relevant, and that which is relevant you don't know yet.
Christian mystics call this "the dark night of the soul". It has to be passed, and once you have passed it, there is the dawn. The sun rises, and one comes to know oneself for the first time. the first ray of the sun and all is fulfilled. The first songs of the birds in the morning, and all is attained.

Osho, Intimacy


I love this.
Imagine how fucking awesome it would be, if you are attending your fathers 60th birthday standing in front of one hundred people sniffing a line (of course you take this fake "sniff" stuff :-D) and fucking your girlfriend. If this makes you shrink I'll guess you have to work on your approval seeking issues =). If this line I just said even offends you, that's probably a sign that you have even more approval seeking issues. If this is frightening you, you can also begin with some smaller "goals" of course, and step by step try to disidentify with what other people told you what you are truely not. As soon as I have more time, I'll experiment with this and tell you what worked for me and what did not. I think this is the biggest Inner Game issue you can work on. It will enrich your life tremendously.

It's always on

The mating screening process of men and women is always on. In every interaction both literally rate each other subconsciously with a ranking bar.
Women are relationship creatures which basically means that they find god through relationships and children if this is not a too fluffy expression for you. As a result women tend to stay in relationships just for the sake of it with the next good guy around. God bless, because otherwise there would not be that much relationships. Men would be more likely to fuck them and then again follow their purpose.
Naturals know this. And that's why they treat women always like women whether her finger is right next to her or not. And I think it's totally ok to put out your natural masculine vibe as long as you are not hitting on her too hard. A healthy mindset at this point is: "I know you have a boyfriend, and I respect that, but I don't compromise to be a sexual human being and it is your choice what you do". It's her choice so you should not get too guilty for seducing her as long as you are straight forward with your intentions. She should be mature enough to choose her boyfriend if she does not want to ruin the relationship.
Unfortunately most of todays women have no honour. If their boyfriend is not around she will probably cheat. It reminds me of reacting more like an animal than proactively choosing one's reality.
So remember it's always on and you have nothing to lose. If it's the girlfriend of one of your best friends you get involved with and she even cheats on him with you, don't be afraid. If your best friend is somehow rational he should thank you for showing him what a miserable bitch she is.

PS: Oh yeah, one more thing. You could wonder why I do not bother making a move on anothers girlfriend. It seems not integrous. But you could be any other guy if it comes to cheating. And if you genuinely like her start a relationship with her and train her to become a better woman. If you just want to fuck her it's probably a violation of love and respect, but I'm not so sure about this one. I would probably do it anyway if I'm really interested. If you have any suggestions please leave a comment below.

I don't need sex because university fucks me every day

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Chakra Three: Fire

This chakra deals with the obstacles and opportunieties of power, will and self-esteem. Let's say you really tackled chakra one and two and you do not struggle anymore with money issues or living at the minimum. And you are also able to know how to meet your needs and how to enjoy life fully with a rich perspective. The next step for most individuals is to ask for something greater, to take full responsibility for theit own life and to make the things happen which they desire. Taking full responsibility is a HUGE step, because it also means taking an honest look at yourself and to bear that some of your past decisions and actions led to unpleasant circumstances: like a smoking habit, a fat body, being a jerk or loser around women or just to be a boring lazy douchebag.
Everybody has different resources to access from, and I don't blame anyone who studies like speedy gonzales and is not able to pull off his examinations. But everyone creates his own reality, and is able to be HIS best self. Believe me, it's often the lack of inner game that seperates the doers from the dreamers and not the IQ (for most of us).
I think the connections are very obvious, but the ability to be powerful is measured by your ability to exercise your will and your sense of power is directly linked to your level of self-worth. It's most likely that people who can easily meet their needs and are easily able to accomplish goals have high self-esteem. Most people's self-worth is dependant on others and few people are good and get praised and only these people become proud. From then on it is easier to give a shit on other people's opinions and move on into the heart, the 4th chakra.
But let's have a closer look at will, power and self-esteem.


1. Your Will
You need your will to make effective changes in the world, make choices and to overcome inertia of the lower chakras. It is the gateway from mind to action, it helps you to create your own future and I would say that it is WHAT MAKES YOU ALIVE.
Everybody who is good with women is also very good at exercising his will. This is what gives you that SPARK in your eyes, what is sooo attractive (this is what makes charismatic people).
To help you get a handle on this chakra the disctinction between will and true will is very useful:
If you do what someone else tells you to do, when you really would rather not, you are still exercising your will, but deep inside it's not your true will. To get it back we must realize we have chosen to do this and examine the reason for that choice. It's a bit tough to figure this out, because there seem to be many layers of your will, but if you play with it and try to do what you love and contemplate about why you do what you do, these layers will eventually unravel.
I don't how how this is to be explained whether you have a biological, psychological or spiritual approach, but I think no matter what the usefulness of this distinction is evident. You will start to feel your purpose when you feel a coherency of flow in your path. It is the part of our intelligence to perceive that path and a task of the will to follow that path.

Now I want you to give you some frames to improve your willpower:
Always examine your will
- are you trying to please?
- are you scared of the consequences?
- are you out of touch with yourself?
- is your will in address of looking good, being liked, keeping peace or avoiding responsibility?

Once we know what our will is serving we must then ask what it might be betraying
- is looking good betraying your honest needs?
- is keeping the peace perpetuating negative circumstances that might need to be confronted?
- is pleasing others lowering your self-esteem?

To make these effects conscious is to empower yourself to choose between them. True will requires a deep communication with the self, trust in yourself, a willingness to take risks and accept responsibilities for those risks which will strengthen your sense of self.

However there are some traps to get stuck in this chakra.
Your self-discilpine for example is important but works better as a want than a should: without agreement between will and desire, we lose our passion and momentum and thereby dissipate the power needed to carry out our will
It is very important to know why you exercise your will and what direction you choose. If you are in the wrong jungle no way is the right one. And by exercising your will you will soon discover that it is not all about personal development and productivity or other needs of the ego, but about discovering yourself, finding truths and fullfilment, the way of the heart.
How can we exert our will if we don't know what we want? - KNOW WHAT YOU WANT. While undue attachment to our desires may keep us trapped in lower chakras, suppression only blocks the force of the will. Try to exercise your will AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. Go from whims to far-reaching cause and effects to your larger purpose.
Also try to recognize when the will becomes detrimentally dominating and overly controlling and let go.



2. Self-esteem

When your self-esteem is high you are confident, pro-active, disciplined and excited about life. Many inner game issues come from a lack of self-esteem. Self-dout and recrimination lead to inertia and paralysis.
Basically there are three ways to improve your self-esteem:
1. do sports (first chara)
2.meet your needs (second chakra)
3.do much trial and error, which gives you a sense of your own abilities (third chakra)


3. Power

Our society basically teaches us that we are powerless, it reinforces conformity in order to control us. It makes us believe that power is somewhere outside of us, whereas the truth is that true power comes from within. Today we are faced with the challenge to change our fundamental believes about power. That the purpose of power is not to dominate and divide but to enhance, strengthen and empower. Real power must strengthen individuals and cultures simultaneously rather than exploiting the great majority of people. The strength of any group depends on its solidarity and its ability to combine and coordinate it's inner forces.
Without power from within we stagnate, lose our enthusiasm, our will and desires; we become machines and without our autonomy we lose the desire to innovate. Vicitms become dumb, turn to drugs and seek stimulation.
Because power comes from within we need to be conscious or aware and understand the relationship between things. True power stems from your reasoning ability.

The affirmations are:
"I choose to appreciate all my unique qualities"
"I choose to own my own strength"
"I choose to keep my power for myself"