Mhhh crazy stuff.... Today and yesterday I started trying out "The Love All Method" and "The Awareness watching Awareness Method" from the book "The most direct means to eternal bliss" from Michael Langford. I jerked off to porn while smoking a cigarette and at the same time trying to love myself completely. It was quite interesting that I felt very very blissful after that for 5 hours straight until I fell asleep. It was a tingling and warm feeling, with all worries evaporated. It was so good that I was content with doing nothing but just enjoying the feeling for hours. There were still thoughts and they only dissapeared for a minute or so when I tried to love them too. I felt that before in the heart chakra meditation, but not so strong. Today I tried it again and it was even so intense that it was overwhelming, but only for about 30 seconds. Then the feeling almost dissapeared. I guess there's a lot of shame and guilt involved doing things you would normally condem yourself for doing them and it's quite a blast when it's released.
Right after that I did the Awareness watching Awareness Method additionally and fell asleep while doing it. When I woke up I saw a small light with darkness around it. Don't know if it's the light all the scriptures talk about. However this state did not feel like hypnosis or like a lucid dream. Don't know what to think about it though.
Well, it's cool experiencing such stuff when you just tried it out for the first time. I'm excited what's about to come and if I'm able to love myself under any circumstances all the time.
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Interesting, I had almost the exact same experience today.
Doing the AWA method, I started going into a state of bliss and seeing this blob of yellowish light surrounded by blackness. Doing it for a while I got kinda tired and wound up going to sleep as well.
The feeling is very relaxing, as if you're totally at peace and non-attached to anything in this world. There is awareness of the world, but not really much thought about it.
Hey Ariel,
nice to hear that. Regarding to your posts on your blog, you show so much expertise that I wondered if you're already close to enlightenment ;-).
Some days ago practicing these methods, I became aware of my energy body, and could shift it a bit apart from my body. But never had an OOBE yet. Or what the shamans do must be a cool experience. Did something of that happened to you already? Or are you able to hold the 500 levels?
I'm probably in the 500's now somewhere wherever. It's the 600's that are tricky. I can't force myself there. The seeking and struggling is getting annoying. Seeking = suffering it would seem. Just gotta surrender, baby!
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